Guess Who’s Back, Back Again

Guess Who’s Back, Back Again

Guess Who's Back, Back Again.

Sorry if that Eminem song is now as stuck in your head as it is in mine. It just fit because I feel as though I’ve fallen away from so many things I loved, including blogging. I fell off the wagon recently, which I was on for so gosh darn long, and I’m trying to get back into the swing of things. I think the reason I fell off the wagon can be found in my All or Nothing post but, I’ll provide a quick summary here: I got too obsessed with my healthy habits. I got so obsessed with losing weight and having a perfect streak that I stopped doing everything when I stopped doing something. It’s a mess and then I went through a period of eating absolute crap, doing nothing and sleeping until 1:30pm. In short I was suffering from major depression exacerbated by my PMDD. I recognized it as soon as it started to get worse and took the extra meds meant to prevent it getting this bad but, they couldn’t touch it. Back to the drawing board for those meds I suppose. Read more

Journal Entry: Feb 25-28 2016 (Sick But Still Going)

Journal Entry: Feb 25-28 2016 (Sick But Still Going)

Journal Entry: Feb 25-28 2016 (Sick But Still Going)

Brushed Teeth: Yes
Walked: Yes, 90 min 4.63 miles (Feb 28)
Healthy Breakfast: Yes
Shower: Yes
No Dunks or Starbucks: Yes
Mood: Sick, exhausted, depressed, still motivated though

I have been slacking on blogging as I’ve lamented in my last three blogs but, this whole period has just been one long sick mess so I’m just combining days to catch us all up and then I’ll get back on the ball. The stats above apply for all days the 25th through the 28th with the exception of the walking. Here’s the thing, I had and still have, a killer head cold but, I am not slacking on my exercise, diet, hygiene, housekeeping routines at all. I may be waiting to go to the gym until the Mucinex kicks in but I’m still going to the gym and working as hard as I would any day. It’s weird because I still have the depressed mood, fatigue, negativity and I can’t follow through on anything but, this isn’t like my depression or so I thought. Read more