WARNING: Contains spoilers for The Martian turn back now if you haven’t seen it yet and want to eventually.
I just finished watching The Martian and I felt the need to write a review and explore how this movie made me feel. The movie is based on the novel The Martian by Andy Weir. It is a story of ingenuity, perseverance, and hope which highlights that the good people outnumber the bad by a large margin. I thoroughly enjoyed it but I did feel a bit shitty for being depressed even though I have a home and a family and a car and food when Mark Watney survived and I would say thrived in such a dire situation. I know this is foolish because comparing is never a good idea and Mark Watney is a fictional character but, it’s just how I felt initially. I wished I could be half as strong, determined, and intelligent as Watney.
Well today I was somewhat prolific on the blog. I wrote/finished 3 posts. I hope you enjoyed them. Life wise I was also pretty good. I brushed my teeth this morning again and I even sorted, folded, and put away clean laundry. Mostly because I had no underwear left but, still. It was a more productive day than most and then 5pm hit and I needed a nap.
Napping can be nice but lately I have needed a nap a day. It’s starting to get a little old not being able to stay awake for a full day. I’m not sure what is going on. I’m sleeping at night. Could it just be that my hypomania is making me so jittery and so restless during the morning/day that I tire myself out? I am on Latuda again which can cause drowsiness and I can’t take it in the morning so I take it at night which I think should make it a less likely culprit. Could it just be that I’m in a mixed state? Rapid cycling through mania and depression? It’s just every afternoon. I have therapy tomorrow and though we are trying to do EMDR to fix the root cause of my issues I think this is worth raising.
I suppose I should be happy. I’m a grown up who is out of work and not financially stressed and I get more sleep. Sleep is beautiful and wonderful and comfy. I guess I just think I could get more done if I didn’t have a 2-3 hour nap every day. Maybe tomorrow I’ll set an alarm so I’m only out for an hour or so.
I’m sorry if my journal entries aren’t very interesting. I use them mostly for myself but, I try to bring up some point that someone may be struggling with in each one. Maybe I’ll just keep it up until I am doing better, until I don’t have to think of having to brush my teeth anymore. I hope this finds you well or on your way to wellness.