Journal Entry: Jan 9, 2016 (Anxiety Fueled Writer’s Block)

Journal Entry: Jan 9, 2016 (Anxiety Fueled Writer’s Block)

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Well, I did brush my teeth this morning but, that’s the only positive I can think of. This journal entry is going great so far, eh? I just had a very down day. Well a down yet jittery day if that makes any sense. I got some good feedback on the first part of my series on PTSD and I was so grateful I decided I had to write the second part but, I just couldn’t. I actually broke into a cold sweat when I sat down to write it and that was just after contemplating what images to use. I guess that I’m not as over that as I thought I was. I really thought I was down to 1 or 2 very distinct triggers at this point but, I guess writing down the details and what causes me to really freak out really freaked me out. I will try again tomorrow. I do think it’s important.

I had a not so great self care day. I barely ate anything I didn’t eat until noon after being up for 6 hours. I haven’t gotten out of my PJs. I did post some helpful things on Pinterest and Twitter┬áso that was a positive. Well this is going to be the shortest journal entry ever but, I really don’t have much more to say, I played Skyrim, watched Doctor Who and took a nap midday. I do have to say I think that one of the reasons I am so tired apart from being hypomanic and anxious may be that I switched to decaf. Or I just tired myself out with so much stress. It’s one of those.

Oh yes I almost forgot, there was something interesting I found today it was a list of ways to cope with anxiety after I tried writing and had a panic attack I tried one of them that I hadn’t heard of before (see image below), grab a book and read the first chapter you find aloud. I read more than a chapter but, still it seemed to have helped. I recommend it. It seems silly reading out loud to yourself and clearly this isn’t a trick you could use on the subway or at work but, for a home based solution it has potential. I hope you’re well or working toward wellness. Good night!

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Journal Entry: Jan 8, 2016 (My Significant Other)

Journal Entry: Jan 8, 2016 (My Significant Other)

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Well, as I said in yesterday’s post Pulling Myself Out of Depression One Habit at a Time, I have decided to start posting journal entries here. I hope they are as helpful for you as I imagine they will be for me. I also said in that post that I am going to start one little easy habit to get me rolling. That habit was brushing my teeth every morning and I am happy to report that I did it. The first day’s always easy though so I’m not going to get too excited. I start things like this all the time but, I think this time it will be different because I’ll have these journal entries to keep me accountable.

Hypomania took hold today. I was antsy and fidgety and wanting everything to happen for this site/cause of mine immediately. I worked most of the day on gaining new Twitter followers, I started a Pinterest, I updated the look of all my social media sites to match the blog. They all look much less amateurish now. I like the changes quite a bit. Hey I just said something positive about myself and I brushed my teeth this morning I think I deserve a gold star.

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