Journal Entry: Feb 9, 2016 (Tuesdays Suck)

Journal Entry: Feb 9, 2016 (Tuesdays Suck)

Journal Entry: Feb 9, 2016 (Tuesdays Suck)

Brushed Teeth: Yes
Walked: Yes, 42 min 2.19 miles
Healthy Breakfast: Yes
Shower: Yes
No Dunks or Starbucks: Yes
Mood: Busy and Frustrated and Blah

Tuesdays are awful because my carefully stacked habits get thrown all about. You see I have PT (Physical Therapy) on Tuesdays and I’ve been told by my physical therapist not to work out before my appointment. I thought getting two workouts in would be great but, he was not on board. I usually wake up around 5am and get to the gym by 5:15am or 5:30am. I take my meds, brush my teeth, go to the gym, workout, eat my healthy breakfast, take my daughter to school, shower, and avoid buying Dunks or Starbucks for myself all day. On a PT day though, I still wake up around 5am, take my meds and brush my teeth but, then I have to wait until 9am or 9:30am to go to PT to get my workout in. It drives me cuckoo. I don’t want to stray from my routine very much because I want it to become second nature but, this throws a wrench in it. I think I have to make a Tuesday routine that is different on purpose. Maybe take meds, brush teeth, do chores, healthy breakfast, drive daughter to school, PT & workout, shower and avoid Dunks or Starbucks? I think that could work I’ll try it next week.

Today was the worst though.┬áBusy and full of cancellations. My daughter’s classes were cancelled though only one was announced so she was driven to school even though she didn’t need to be and then needed to be driven back because she forgot her wallet, luckily she left it at the table with her friends. I did some chores. Our kitchen has been piling up with cans and bottles like crazy. We haven’t redeemed them in quite some time so I had a ton of redeeming to do at a machine. It took awhile but, it was really good to purge. I then recycled the plastic shopping bags at the grocery store. I hate that I don’t use reusable bags anymore but, at least I’m recycling the plastic bags, right? I did some shopping and then I napped for an hour. I just felt exhausted, lifting things is much more of a workout than it used to be so redeeming all of those bottles and cans knocked the wind out of me. I then went to get my blood drawn (INR check it’s a coumadin [blood thinner] thing) and found out that I didn’t need to go to my next destination which was my therapist’s office.

I was really bummed that she cancelled. I think part of the dread is all of my repressed emotion about my trauma and we were going to start EMDR which was designed to help people work through PTSD. She was able to get me in on Wednesday at noon so it wasn’t all that bad but still. It was just a weird day full of frustration and cancellations. I went to bed pretty early. I hope your day was better and as always I hope this post finds you well or on your way to wellness.

Journal Entry: Jan 19, 2016 (Good Therapy Session)

Journal Entry: Jan 19, 2016 (Good Therapy Session)

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Today I woke up, brushed my teeth, and went to the gym, in the right order this time. The mile felt harder today for some reason, probably because I didn’t stretch yesterday. I did today so I hope tomorrow it’ll be a little easier. I then went to my Sister’s house to spend time with her and my two adorable nephews who are crazy but, super adorable so I don’t mind. They are almost 3 and 8 months old. I wrote in yesterday’s journal entry that tomorrow (Wednesday) I was going to try to take the 30 mg slow release Adderall and see if I could stay out of bed all day, I realized today that is quite a jump from 10 mg-30 mg so instead I’ve decided to take 20 mg of the fast acting stuff today I took one in the am and one around 5pm, before I got too lazy to see if it keeps me going if it does I think I’ve solved the problem but, I really should step it up slowly so 1 week with two doses of 10 mg a day and then I’ll increase to the 30 mg. Very boring stuff I am sure. I treated myself today to Ida Maria’s album Fortress ’round My Heart which is my favorite but, I didn’t own for some reason. I also treated myself to a dozen white roses. I hate grocery shopping so I think I deserve a reward for doing so and buying some healthy junk too. Read more