Journal Entry: Jan 19, 2016 (Good Therapy Session)

Journal Entry: Jan 19, 2016 (Good Therapy Session)

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Today I woke up, brushed my teeth, and went to the gym, in the right order this time. The mile felt harder today for some reason, probably because I didn’t stretch yesterday. I did today so I hope tomorrow it’ll be a little easier. I then went to my Sister’s house to spend time with her and my two adorable nephews who are crazy but, super adorable so I don’t mind. They are almost 3 and 8 months old. I wrote in yesterday’s journal entry that tomorrow (Wednesday) I was going to try to take the 30 mg slow release Adderall and see if I could stay out of bed all day, I realized today that is quite a jump from 10 mg-30 mg so instead I’ve decided to take 20 mg of the fast acting stuff today I took one in the am and one around 5pm, before I got too lazy to see if it keeps me going if it does I think I’ve solved the problem but, I really should step it up slowly so 1 week with two doses of 10 mg a day and then I’ll increase to the 30 mg. Very boring stuff I am sure. I treated myself today to Ida Maria’s album Fortress ’round My Heart which is my favorite but, I didn’t own for some reason. I also treated myself to a dozen white roses. I hate grocery shopping so I think I deserve a reward for doing so and buying some healthy junk too. Read more

Journal Entry: Jan 18, 2016 (Up and Down)

Journal Entry: Jan 18, 2016 (Up and Down)

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I did it! On Sunday I said I’d stack another habit to my teeth brushing habit and I did it. Well I forgot to brush my teeth (not completely, I just did it after) but, I got my walk in. My original plan was to walk around my cul-de-sac but Sunday night it snowed and dumped 6″ or so on the ground so that plan was out I was about to give up when I decided I have a gym membership I’m going to use it. I strapped on my boots, put my sneakers in a bag, cleaned off my car and went to the gym to walk on the treadmill. I walked 1 mile. I have decided that is what I’m starting with 1 mile every day, until my mile gets shorter it’s now like 21 minutes. Before all of the junk that happened in part IV of my PTSD series my mile was about 16 minutes and I could consistently keep up speed. Now I’m just so slow, my muscles are not strong enough yet to get back to my speedy ol’ self. But I went! That is the big announcement. My hypomania got me there. I went and I got my mile in. Read more